Why is it always at night my emotions are heightened?
Why is it always at night my thoughts and feelings make me shudder?
Night was the time when i had to quell my agony.
It was the time when i had to subdue the hopelessness of my predicament.
At first, i thought it is the darkness of night which has been plauging me for years. I painted darkness as it was accompanied by some evil. I alleged it as it had eroded my confidence and happiness, and i began to bear animosity towards darkness.
I pined for satisfaction but to no avail.
Why was it so difficult for me to understand the gravity of the situation?
I longed for a reprieve from pain.
It was the time when i felt inconsolable.
I found myself on the edge of an abyss.
I sparred no effort to muster all the strength i could to override the mounting pain.
I strained every nerve to hammer out a solution and finally realized that it all had been just a charade.
It is not the darkness itself which is horrenduous but it is the silence of the darkness which has been intensifing such unfavourable feelings.
Since it is always in silence i feel no distraction and when it is darkness as bonus, i rack with pain.
However; i have learned to mould this problem into my favour. Undoubtedly, i was beset with hysteria, yet i managed to survive and decided not to lend countenance to any kind of unfavourable emotions whether it is night, darkness, or the silence of darkness.
Muhammad Tahir Baloch
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